WHY

Why is it dat I crave for his presence…….
Why is it dat I love watching his gestures when he stands next to me…
Why is it that I search for him and wait for him, knowing that he wont come…..
Why is it that I commence and finish my prayers with his name and asking lord to give him the best in everything he does……
Why is it that his silence communicates more with me than his words……….
Why is it that I blush even at the utter of his name!!!!!

What spark does he possess in him that makes me give away anything and everything for him….
My life gets centralized around this man and I wish to make my self complete with his presence…
The moment I say…."I love you"….he can see the depth of respect I hold for him in my eyes…
The world seems to be beautiful with him and moreover I seem to be in heaven….
He has given a new dimension to everything in my life, a new meaning to HAPPINESS
But I still have this fear………fear of losing the best part of my life….
I fear leading a life that is hollow without the man of my life…
I fear the circumstances…..which may snatch him away from my eyes….
Why cant I assure myself that I have my love and will always be with him…….
Why …why cant I find the answers to all these doubts and questions I have???
Why??????????

Dedicated to someone special...

I saw myself promise him forever,
But forever’s come and gone…..

Maybe the world would say whatever,
It takes to keep me blind…..

They said that I was wrong ,
They still say I am wrong ,
But they were not right either, to hesitate
To dare into my eyes….

I don’t claim I was always right…
But my soul capacitates me to rectify myself.

They all left ,spreading a word in the air
But I mourn over the departure of my friend
Who knew my thoughts before I did.

But today, he doubts….
Today ,his decisions waver…
I cant blame him, but myself….
Coz the doer lies in me….

Yes , I am a fighter ,
But I cant fight against his absense….
My mistakes make me realize , I don’t deserve him,
But then my life goes half vacant without……..

I apologize …..
I apologize to my Lord before I produce a whirl of apologies to anyone else.
I promise to correct myself before I point towards the world.

And finally, I swear to no one ,but myself, that my life is incomplete,
coz the space created can never be filled in again………

Search My Soul.....

A tide within....but never did i realize....
An ocean to gift to the world.....but never did i discover it...

A twilight when seen, was supperssed.....
rather, an external force always dominates!

I always doubted what i knew i have....coz the smoke never cleared.....
But now I know that its true.

Yes, its true that my soul isnt within me........
somewhere beside myself.....

A few raindrops to quench the thirst,
A touch to the blind,
A grasping hand to a child,
Shelter to the destitute ;
With an equivalent lust i search for my soul.
I search the planet... to where i belong.
I search....I crave......I yearn....
And i pray to thee.........
Show me the door which opens to that one Chance.....
Where my soul lies entrapped!

MY ORGAN OF VISION.........

Eyes that portray my image……….
Eyes that twinkle at my presence……….
Eyes that are transparent to mine……..
Eyes that say ,”U ARE MINE”…….
Eyes that are drenched before I shed a tear………….
Eyes that pray to Lord for my well being………
Eyes that communicate……….I AM ALWAYS WITH YOU………
Eyes that exude love……
Eyes that nullify my pain by just laying a glance………


I say, I have encountered the contentment of heaven….
May be….met the purpose I was born for………..
Those eyes …that are mine………
The eyes ….that I live for…..
Yes, I have met u……I have experienced the tenderness….
I perceive my best friend…..my MIRROR facing me…….
And today, my eyes yearn to see u rule the universe …
The way u rule my SOUL………